Because… Love (05/02/2013)

Love is an experience often dreaded, usually due to the past,

And even when we move on from the pain, we’re afraid that love won’t last.

We go forth in life, yearning for more, seeking to fulfill our needs.

We continue the cycle of the same again, just trying to plant some seeds.

 

We want to seed our future – yes – we want to feel our bliss.

And yet we can’t handle the times that come when our Loves are to be missed.

The time away should not cause pain, and yet we still seem to shudder,

Due to the paranoia we create of our Loves being with another.

 

Love is bliss. Love is life. Love is all we need.

Love is the very essence of our being, and often why we bleed.

Love is now. Love is later. Love is surely forever.

Love is the reason to give and receive – the purpose of our coming together.

 

I love you now. I love you tomorrow. I love you forever and always.

This burning desire I feel for you shall go beyond both of our days.

To love and be loved is the experience we all go through this life and seek.

Love is the reason for our very being; we just have to learn to receive.

 

 

Humanity and The Capsule (4/15/2013)

There is simply so much going on during this time that one almost cannot keep up; the events of late are happening at so rapidly that I won’t even waste my energy attempting to name at least half of them. What I will do is share with you a personal moment of reflection and contemplation. This is a very important and extraordinary time in human evolution that we are living in. We are experiencing a heightening in human and planetary frequencies. We are remembering our past and envisioning our future. We are recalling our past incarnations and imagining the incarnations to come – but what is most important right now is embracing the present moment.

Today during my evening commute home, I listened to my favorite tunes as usual, contemplated life and went into a mental fantasy land. I began to play songs that had strong relevance to past experiences of this lifetime, and I realized that I have just experienced a re-cap of all my incarnations up until this point within just 25 years. I feel like my experiences were just put into one bottle or capsule and during this incarnation that capsule was opened and everything just flooded out.

We all know someone that has lived a lifetime, or three, worth of events in just a few short years. We all have moments in which we feel like a year’s worth of events happened in just one month. This is the quickening – the review – and it’s also the opportunity to make amends with lessons to be learned from the past. In my experience I have come to find that once an individual passes the various “tests” presented in order to close a door of karmic cycles and all lessons have been learned, that person then goes forth to apply those lessons. The newly reborn and enlightened individual goes forth to teach what has been learned, and most importantly, the individual becomes a beacon of Light – a living example of what the evolved human being is to become.

The end goal isn’t to become a teacher or “guru” of sorts, it’s to become a heavenly being of Light incarnated on this physical plane. The goal of humanity is to bring the reality of Heaven to Earth – to fully realize the true meaning of “As Above, So Below.” We look into the night sky with great wonder and amazement, and we should be able to look at what is here on Earth with that same astonishment and humility. We cannot manifest heaven on Earth if we do not consciously work to reintegrate with our Higher Selves and The Source that all of existence originates from. We must connect and reconnect with Cosmic Consciousness and disconnect from this illusion of separation.

For some of us, this incarnation is the first of many to come. For others, this incarnation is just getting to the meat of what being Human is all about. For a few others, this is the last incarnation, and this life is to lead the other soul personalities here into the Light of The Golden Age so that true Heaven on Earth can be realized and experienced. Wherever we are on our path, we must continue. We must not give up on this world and those who dwell within it. We must not give up on our selves. As we grow and evolve, we must teach and lead those around us who need our assistance. We must go forth with Love, Light, and Care. The time to manifest The Kingdom into our direct reality is now here, and we must seize each and every moment. We must understand and appreciate the everlasting Now.

As I raise my vibration, I contemplate how I will be of service to humanity as I was chosen to do in this incarnation. I continue to do my work here with the Written Word, and I continue to send Light, Life, and Love to all of humanity. But I ask of you: how will you be of service to humanity? How will you be of service to yourself? Light your own fire and then share that Light with all that are able to perceive it! This reality is what we make of it. The truth of Heaven will be known, and it will be ours.

So Mote It Be!

Buying a Stairway to Heaven (4/6/2013)

From secret societies to religious places of “worship” we can find two things that are prevalent throughout: individuals claiming to teach truth and those same individuals standing up with their hands out – asking for money. What’s up with this? As any individual can communicate with “God” at any time he or she chooses to – free of charge – what is the point of creating these “temples” of sorts, just to turn around and charge a fee or ask for money?

This is one thing that has never sat well with me. Whether the goal is to preach the “Word of God” or to simply inform people of  a Higher Truth, I personally believe that one’s energy should never truly be focused on collecting money or charging “dues”. The mystical path and religious affiliations are not quite things people are encouraged to list on their resumes or use to “get ahead” in the mundane world, so why is there such emphasis on this mundane “tool” that is really of no benefit to one’s spiritual growth beyond learning how to overcome being corrupted?

It’s bad enough that there is a massive disinformation campaign going on that dreadfully misconstrues the truth, and now we have to deal with literally having to buy a stairway to heaven. I do understand that we live in a world where we are charged fees to breathe, but I have also seen very successful organizations operate solely on donations – giving of money and resources that is completely voluntary. You know, those places with donation boxes that don’t ask you much else other than, “How are you?” and, “How can we help you?” There is nothing wrong with having the pot to collect what someone is willing to give, but to always consciously have your hand out and/or charge seekers a potentially unaffordable fee is the ultimate form of blasphemy to me.

When connecting to the Higher Power, the last thing I want to have on my mind is having to pay for that connection. I don’t want to be concerned with having to pay for access to information that – in all reality – is free. The Cosmic cares not for the status of one’s bank account, so why should we? If we are microcosmic manifestations of the universe, then when must we “pay” for being exactly what we are? There is no need to charge someone for wanting to understand his or her own very being. It makes my stomach turn to hear or see money be so closely associated with The Great Teachings of the All the Ages. The Masters of before who incarnated here did not seek profit for their work, they simply moved forward on their divine inspiration. There was no need to have incomes that allowed for the construction of great palaces to celebrates one’s “Superior level of Illumination”.

Our Divine Missions are not about profit – they are not about becoming famous. The task at hand is not for the pleasure of our egos that seek fortune, fame, and endless riches. The purpose is to enlighten ourselves and others around us. Seek not the monetary fruits of your work, but seek the illumination of all beings upon this planet. It is time for even those in the spiritual community and those who claim to be “enlightened” to wake up even farther. If your intent is for fame or profit, then yes, my dear, you are still asleep. Allow people the option to contribute without a request that could leave someone feeling obligated. Allow someone to volunteer to contribute in any way one can, and let us not turn away from those who are willing to give their most precious resources: time and energy. As long as we have eyes to see, ears to hear, and mouths to speak with then that is all that matters as far as teaching our fellow seekers The Truth and moving humanity toward higher planes of Light. With ample amount of focus and effort, the task at hand will be completed, and it will be great.

 

Worthiness (3/26/2013)

There is something that I have been struggling with, and I have been struggling with this for a long time. How do I go about fulfilling my Divine Mission? Where do I truly start? Where do I look for the resources I need? Where will they come from? As many times as I went within to ask the questions, I came out with answers that were clearly misinterpreted. But then, I may have also been asking the wrong questions. See, in the life of a mystic – actively living in The Spirit – you have to be very specific. Whether you are asking a question or doing magickal works in order to fulfill a personal desire or purpose, you have to pretty much lay everything out in detail – you have to be very particular.

I see now that I was a bit more focused on whether things were going to happen at all than on what I needed to do to make them happen. Yes, I have the talent and skills needed to carry out my Work, but I still need various resources and opportunities. I have spent much of my time wondering how I was going to get to these opportunities – more so if they would happen at all. Now I see that my focus was on the wrong thing; I should have focused on what opportunities were going to come up, and from where should I be open to them coming from. I have spent many days and weeks reading horoscopes and interpreting my own dreams. I’ve meditated and prayed on this issue, but I simply did not see what was in front of me. What I held in my very own hands.

A few days ago, my horoscope stated that I am searching for a special resource, and I would need to calm down and not be too picky about what it was I needed, for the resource woud be something that I already I had. And lo! I happened to go searching through a resource of mine and found what it was that I was looking for. I had it all along, and refused to look at what I had for fear of being unworthy of taking full advantage of this resource. I didn’t think I was too good to put my efforts toward this way of doing things, but I thought that I was not good enough – I thought that there may not have even been an open opportunity for me. And then I saw it – I saw my window of opportunity. I saw my own reflection, and I knew that I had to seize the moment and make a move towards manifesting everything I have envisioned and hoped for.

We shall see if this gem that I found is truly the one that I am looking for. Yet, I have no doubts about the positive possibility that this is The One. How could I have incarnated on this Earth to do a specific job and not be worthy of the best resources that are available? How could I not be worthy of completing my mission with the protection, love, knowledge, and resources to be provided by a special key that I hold? Everything happens for a reason, and all things are placed in our lives to serve a purpose. My purpose is to serve – to serve Humanity and The Cosmic. I humbly go forth with my quest and fully accept and embrace my Divine Task at hand.

If you feel inspired to do something special or create something or go somewhere, follow that inspiration and make manifest! We are all worthy of everything that The Cosmic and The Earth have to offer. Let no one tell you otherwise!

Namaste!

 

Love is a One Way Street (02/14/2013)

It’s Valentine’s Day 2013 and love is surely in the air. At midnight, my mother sent me a text message saying that she loved me, and I went through the house giving everyone hugs and wishing them a Merry Valentine’s Day. In our house, this is a day about love. Period. As I commuted home from The Art Institute of Atlanta after my Art History class, I was pleased to see so many men with balloons and gifts for their special sweethearts. A young father was out with his three young daughters, and all three of them were dressed in pink and red attire. The mood is right, and love is in the air. Yet, there are still so many who are not being able to fully enjoy such a wonderful, loving day. There are the single, the lonesome and, of course, the heartbroken.

Many people enjoy ranting and raving about how they hate Valentine’s Day. They hate love. They hate people that are in love. Honestly, I think they just love to hate, but in any case, these feelings have valid origins. Most people have experienced the high school crush, the college infatuation, the lustful obsession with a co-worker, the first love, and so many other experiences of the heart. All of these have brought us to that fateful day when we had to come back to reality and admit that it just won’t work. The personalities don’t mix well, the bad habits are unbearable, or the usual he/she is a complete asshole! The most painful experience is often the unrequited love – when love becomes a one way street.

A dear friend of mine and I just had our own experiences with unrequited love. We had been toyed with, mislead, bamboozled – you get the picture. We had a chat one evening on Facebook Messenger and went back and forth speaking of our most recent heartbreaks. Now, while I express my emotions with words, he expresses his with music. So, during the conversation he stated that he wanted to play his latest tune for me to hear and give some feedback on, and so I did. I loved it! The melody played was amazing and it sounded like something I would expect to hear on my local rock radio station. Then, he went on to share his tentative lyrics, which touched me personally and were very fitting to the situations that both of us were dealing with.

A few weeks and many conversations later, he finally got his song completed, recorded, and put to a video. The video execution is clearly that of an amateur, but it works for him in ways. The genuine amateur presentation shows the message that, “I’m here and I’m working! Either you’re with me or not!” The sound quality of this video is also a bit inconsistent, as there are segments that are clear in audio and then a good chunk that sounds like someone blew out the bass of some speakers. His voice is not bad, but it could use some training. Trust me, we’ve all heard much worse. All he really needs is a little guidance on pitch and control. All in all, the song has hit potential – in my opinion anyway. The guitar solo is amazing – as one should be – and the song is very honest and real. Once you get passed the inconsistent sound levels and don’t take time to over critique the video concept, the song comes together and it’s truly something to listen and relate to. With a little vocal training, fine tuning, and professional audio mixing this is  surely a song to be on the look out for! Where are my talent scouts? We’ve got a star on the rise! Look out for the next great musician, Geoff with a G and hit hit “One Way Love”!

 

Outcry of a Purifying Soul (1/7/2013)

To purify, to burn – the lessons that are to be learned. To chill to drive, to continuously go on and strive. What is life? What is sanity? What is real? What is humanity? I am a person, an individual, and yet I am still a part of the greater collective. What is most important though – most important to know – is that I am love. I am an immense bundle of love that has no end. I have pent up a lot of my sensitive and loving energy in hopes of protecting myself from the mundane world. I spent most of my life trying to fight off the negativity that was forced upon me, only to be in constant battle mode. Now, I face the challenge of being myself and truly living my own philosophy.

Yes, I know I am sensitive, I am emotional, and many others have been able to see this side. But the world at large has been exposed to a me that is not so nice, not always respectful, and surely not always pleasant to be around. To put it simply, the world at large does not truly know me – even those closest to me don’t really know me. I have been a defensive bitch for so long that I have deceived even myself into believing that this is who I am, but it’s not.

I am full of love, and my flood gate has been opened. An event took place recently that has left me more vulnerable than I have ever felt, and I want to close the flood gate – I want to forget the whole experience – but I feel that I have to make a different choice. Whilst I usually take comfort in forgetting what I have felt and bottling myself back up, I have come to realise that I am tired of doing that. Actually, I am tired PERIOD! I am tired of being angry, sad, alone, shunned, bitchy, condescending, and an overall asshole.

For a while, I took comfort in being a asshole. I loved being as mean and insulting as possible. I took pride in using my intellect and wits to the disadvantage of another person’s ego. I was self-righteous. I felt that no one could tell me anything. I could virtually do no wrong. Over the past few years, I have worked to transform myself. I have wanted to no longer be alienated. I wanted to look and feel different, but I often feared not having the resources for such change or being able to truly thrive and enjoy the way I was going. Being surrounded by those who enjoyed the bitch and loved my “darker side” did not make things any easier. When I wanted to be light, I was still stuck in a world of darkness and it as comfortable for me. Even recently, within the past year, I have wanted to hold on to that darkness and dwell in it, as it provided such comfort. Now – now I embrace true evolution of my Self – my soul.

A change needs to be made for the better – from the way I dress to the way I think. I need to truly Be Thyself and be my own philosophy. Live and be me. I spent a portion of my life finally accepting myself. I was finally happy with myself – a sarcastic bitch that made people laugh. Yes, I knew my flaws and I could care less about them because I was happy with myself and that was all that mattered. I was consumed by my own Super Ego. However, there is more to personal evolution than acceptance of Self; there is also a need to continuously improve oneself. There is also the need to give and receive love. It is true that we need to love ourselves, but if we build up that abundance of love within ourselves and do not allow that love to flow from us to another, then we become overwhelmed with that feeling and still feel lonely. There is such thing as “too much of a good thing”.

Humanity is made of love. We need love. We need to give love and receive love. There has to be a constant flow of unconditional love, to ourselves and to one another. What happened to the days when we would love and accept one another – flaws and all? Why does it seem to be so hard to recognize our own faults and be willing to not only work on ourselves, but also work together to better each other? How have we become to engulfed in our egos that constructive criticism is negative and can do no good? When we allow our love to flow and live in a state of love, the possibilities of our lives are endless. The possibilities of our relationships are endless. The possibilities of our Selves and what we can do are endless. So we must love – I must love. This is the beginning of a new stage of my life – being my true self. I am a gentle bundle of love that seeks to love and be loved, and I plan on doing just that.

Be Thyself.

The Beast (11/30/2012)

I am scared of what I am becoming, but I feel I have no choice.

Screaming at the top of my lungs, yet feeling I have no voice.

For I – I am an artist. An artist living in darkness.

Seeking to illuminate the world with all the knowledge I harness.

 

But there is more to me than that; there is more to see.

A multitude of various sins dwells inside of me.

I have no fear of them, and no, I have no shame.

This is just one life, and I have played the game.

 

Love, lust and lies – I have done them all.

And now they come to haunt, sending me up a wall.

Feeling so deluded, with things I can’t recall.

I’m really starting to wonder, was I ever “good” at all?

 

Well behaved in general, and yes, a kindred heart,

But I have had a bad side, and loved it since the start.

Being sensual is special – loving the sacred art.

Men and women alike, I have had my part.

 

But I still feel insatiable – just haven’t had enough.

I really need to break free of trying to be so tough.

I’m way too tough on myself, and surely too tough on others.

Maybe I should go loosen up, preferably under the covers.

 

I can be very good, and yet oh so bad.

I am surely the best and worst woman you’ve never had.

‘Tis time to unleash the beast in spite of the current fad.

And with the mediocrity of the world – for this we will all be glad.

 

Welcome, my loves, welcome to my special land.

Please stay on your path, and grab your partner’s hand.

The road will be long and rough, and it will be new to see.

But I appreciate your support, now come along with me.

 

The Illusion of Love (11/18/2012)

To fall in love with an illusion, that is what I may have done.

I’m not too sure what to do now – don’t know where to run.

My heart and soul were with this man, and I feel now he is gone.

I look for confirmation, and I wonder if he is The One.

 

I cannot explain what I feel right now, I cannot put into words.

I cannot comprehend this experience, so profound yet so absurd.

An illusion in my eyes – and apparently in my mind -

I fell in love so deep, and yet I became so blind.

 

The Cosmic sent signs, or did I just choose to see?

I thought I saw a lot, but was it really just me?

I know these things are hard, and difficult to believe.

Unfortunately, I thought there was really a bigger picture for me.

 

This is not about a person, this is my sanity.

I don’t know what is real; I don’t know reality.

Have I really gone off the deep end, or am I panicking?

Did I really just deceive myself, or am I just ascending?

 

I don’t know what to do, and I don’t know what to believe.

The disappointment that I feel could also be synchronicity.

I can channel and foresee, and now I have to believe -

That I am connected to this man, and I will always see.

 

I will see his happiness, and I will see him sad.

I will see him alone, and I will feel when he’s mad.

I will crave a cigarette when he takes a break to smoke.

I will always be a part of this very interesting bloke.

 

He is me and I am he, and for a while we were one.

The subconscious was not enough, and the physical world won.

He is now gone from me, but it will not last not forever.

All I can do now is hope that one day, we will be together.

 

But why, oh Lord, why must I deal?

Why is this experience something I have to feel?

You knew already that another loss I could not endure.

A day referring to spiritual endurance, I am tired for sure.

 

Why did I have to go through this experience, why – why me?

Why couldn’t he have been the one lost in deceptive belief?

But then maybe he is lost too, maybe he is finding his way -

Maybe he is searching – hoping to meet me one day.

 

False hope is nothing more of my days.

I refuse to continue to go on this way.

But, my Lord, please bring more light to my days.

A miracle, my Lord, is all I ask – all I say.

Artistic Li Speaking (11/10/2012)

 

 

 

Is the female body not but a work of art? I surely believe so! What do you think?

 

 

 

Sensual Li Speaking (11/4/2012)

Today during a short meditation, I had to take a moment to get in touch with my self. I had to dig deep and see who it is that I really am. What did I see? I saw a beautiful woman gracefully expressing herself through pole dancing. This is when it hit me – who and what I really am. As far as I have known, I love sensuality, sexuality, art, history and a plethora of other things, but it never occurred to me that deep down I am a Sensual Artist. Now I may not be an expert pole dancer, but I do have a sensual side that I love to be one with, and I often express it through my thoughts and even in my writings.

I’ve always been in touch with my sexual side, and I have never been afraid of it. I have always embraced the beauty of what some call The “Forbidden” Art, and strongly believe that it should not be forbidden. I see it this way: we were all born naked, so why is it that we fear our own bodies? Why is it “taboo” to look at the beautiful flesh of another person or even ourselves? I have been taking a closer look at my own physical appearance lately, and I have come to the conclusion that The Creator did not make me to look the way I do for no reason, so why not embrace it and share it with the world?

It is believed by New Agers and other Mystics that we are all one, and if that is so, then when I look at myself and see beauty, I automatically see you and your beauty – and vice versa. There is no need to continuously pretend that we do not enjoy the sight of a beautiful woman or a handsome man. We should not limit our sexual expressions and inhibit them to the point where we finally let them out in a raunchy and degrading, animalistic way – although some of us do like it rough. Why is it that in America, sexual expression is called “porn” and in almost every other country it is called art? Why do we teach our children that sex is bad and that they should not be exposed to it just to end up with the awkward situation of having to explain where babies come from? Why do we over shelter our youth from the truth about sexuality and what comes along with the pleasure, and pain, of all related actions? If our youth is properly educated and exposed to The “Forbidden” Art at an early enough age, taught the importance of why one should wait for marriage and the spiritual union that comes along with all sexual experiences, then it would be much easier on society, youth and parents to deal with this matter.

Sexuality should not be feared or “forbidden”; it is the most natural aspect of our being and our true reflection of The Creator at work – the spark of life at the orgasmic climax. Be yourself! Love yourself! Be free! Be sexual! Be sensual! And of course, be CAREFUL! Our bodies and our souls are too precious to take advantage of, and we should not limit true knowledge of what they both are capable of. Be educated! Be liberated! Be Thyself!